Tuesday, March 29, 2022

The Dream Women Called

 In 2009, my sister Lori released a book of poems, House Where a Woman, which I reviewed in this post from 2012.

Last year, she released her second collection, The Dream Women Called, published by Autumn House Press. You can order a copy at Lori's website, LoriWilsonPoet.com, or from your favorite bookseller.

Releasing a book during a pandemic is not ideal; Lori was invited to poetry readings, but they were virtual instead of in-person. One positive was that I could attend her readings no matter where they were held. One negative was that virtual readings don't lead to many sales (so, you should buy her book!).

As I did before, I want to share a few passages from some of Lori's poems, along with some very brief thoughts. Again, I will warn readers that Lori and I are sisters, and thus my viewpoint is anything but objective.

* * *

When to Wake Is to Head down a Road (page 5). This poem describes the potential found in brightly colored threads, potential that might lead somewhere, but then again, might not. A few words conjure up the sounds and sights of a family gathering:

purple silk under my fingers calming in the chaos of smoke, loud talk, 
        heady smells: turkey, butter, black coffee, olives—

the whole family crowding my grandparents' apartment on Peebles Street—
        silver spoon against china cup, ice in a glass, strike of a match.

* * *

Canna Red and Orange (page 8). A mother considers her daughter's cross-country travels, and asks herself:

If what I feel is more envy than worry,
do I love her less?

* * *

In Annapolis and the Dare (page 9). This poem recounts a summer spent living and working with strangers, and conveys a hope and a longing that are left unsatisfied.

I was twenty years old.
I wanted both to be invisible
and to be seen.

. . . 

It was the summer of the bicentennial.
My boyfriend didn't visit
and back home the family dog died.
I dipped my cupped hand with the rest
into bright summer days;
their hands filled with sapphires,
mine with slippery silt, as if
I'd been tricked. I was
never alone, I was always alone
and that summer, a rough stone
began to rub raw a hollow inside me.

* * *

Afterword: For the Circuit Court Deputy Clerk (page 11). Here, the poet muses on the end of a marriage. (Note: I've messed up the formatting of this poem, but I think this is the best I can do with this blogger tool. Find a copy of the book so you can see it properly formatted!)

Dear Clerk: You take eighteen years of marriage, subtract isolation and cold, divide by a lover, again by a lie. Pack the remainder in a cardboard box and move out. I've been sifting through that box for seven years. You never stop asking how it happened. You never stop redoing the math.

* * *

Empty is Good (page 18). In its first two lines, this poem succinctly describes two widely disparate scenarios:

Empty like a dishwasher ready for loading
or empty like a cupboard and the paycheck spent?

* * *

The Day He Struck the Dog (page 22). This poem is painful to read, as the poet documents a moment that overflows with anguish and regret.

She climbed out of the cab,
knelt in the road with two strangers, their dog,
offered to drive them to their car, pay the vet.
She wanted to erase the anguish on their faces,
the dog's pain,
her own silence.

* * *

Mother Accused of Abandoning Children Turns Herself In (page 35). Some homes are filled with a relentless grind, and with a mother's despair and exhaustion.

Eight years with my kids in that house—
read them books between thin plywood walls,
fed them under dangling wires,
bathed them with hauled water
in the blue plastic tub.
Why am I telling you this—
you've decided what I am.

. . . 

And every winter, the snow came
and the same pipes froze
and the wood ran out.

* * *

North on the Caperton Trail (page 39). The poet observes the instinctive focus of a turtle laying her eggs, and wishes for a similar sureness in her own life.

She didn't retreat, and I tell you:
that day I wanted to be unevolved,
to know in the body, each cell affirming
what I should do.
Fear would be irrelevant,
fault and failure nothing but sound.
I wouldn't care who saw
and I wouldn't need praise or a prize at the end—
only my body's sure quiet 

* * *

My Mother Got a Lot of Things Wrong (page 51). This is one of my favorite poems in Lori's collection. The passage of time allows us to add some good memories to the bad, and we find we can grant each other some grace.

My Mother Got a Lot of Things Wrong

but when I was a kid
and afraid I'd swallow a straight pin,
she didn't laugh—
she helped me make a plan,
something to do with eating bread
(to coat the pin)
then visiting Dr. Hoffmeister.
So that's something.

I can't say I loved her.
But there was that straight pin thing
and the time she bought paint
so I could make a mural on my wall.
Also, the smocked christening dress
for the baby and a few other things
I've had fifteen years to remember.

* * *

I Wish I'd Loved the Bat (page 54). A bat invades the home, and the poet observes the kindness offered during its capture.

I wish I could've loved the bat
the way Mike loved it,
talking softly, crooning really,
to the bat he lifted slowly
and settled in the cage.

* * *

The Horse at Dunkard Creek (page 57). This poem is another of my favorites. After a bleak winter, the poet shares some small pleasures, some small victories.

I put the all-seasons back on the Corolla
and carried the snow tires
down to the basement the same day
instead of hauling them around
on the back seat for months.
What I worried was mice in the wall
turned out to be the refrigerator.
Today, I stood on the bank at Dunkard Creek
and the horse ate from my hand.
Iris swam for sticks as long as
I didn't throw them too far,
and the longer I looked at the water,
the more colors I saw.

* * *

Building the Spring House (page 66). After a morning's hard work, the poet encounters an unexpected delight.

It was midafternoon
when we stopped for lunch and I thought
to close the van, and I'd never seen a warbler
or any bird as perfect as the two—
yellow-green, black-hooded—
huddled in a sweatshirt on the seat.
I don't know why they let me lift them
in the nest of my cupped hands, or why
they made no sound, but rested in the ferns
before they flew.

* * *

I hope you will have the opportunity to hold this book in your hands, so that you can enjoy these poems, and others, in their entirety. 



Saturday, March 19, 2022

War Poetry

Back on February 25 - right after Russia attacked Ukraine - I attended an online poetry workshop, hosted by Pádraig Ó Tuama. It was called "Poetry Lab: Exploring Conflict Intelligence Through the Lens of a Single Poem," but on this occasion, Pádraig focused instead on war poetry, as a way to put language around powerlessness.

In my notes, I have four items listed regarding war poetry (which probably sounded more coherent coming from Pádraig, but this is what I have to offer):

  1. A lament
  2. Clear-eyed about death
  3. Bears witness - raises up a small voice
  4. Holds out hope for anthropological change

He shared three poems, which I've linked to here:

One of the participants observed that these three poems teach that we must speak up against war; that speaking up doesn't help; and that the earth will remember, regardless.

Kaminsky's poem circulated widely on social media, in the first days of the Ukraine war. A few lines:

And when they bombed other people’s houses, we

protested
but not enough, we opposed them but not

enough. 

Carruth's poem declares that writing poems about war doesn't change a thing:

but death went on and on
never looking aside

except now and then
with a furtive half-smile
to make sure I was noticing.

Finally, Eckermann's poem bluntly states:

Wildflowers will not grow
where the bone powder
lies
I think that all the poems speak truth, but I hope that someday Carruth will be wrong, that we will recognize the futility of war, that it solves nothing.

(I've been reading Proclaim Peace, by Patrick Q Mason and J David Pulsipher, and find it informing my thinking on this.)



Deer behaving peacefully

Tuesday, March 8, 2022

Choose Kindness

I started this blog back in 2010, and posted regularly for a few years, until October 2014. I don't know what happened next - there was one post in 2015, and then nothing - complete silence for nearly seven years!

When I retired, I decided that I would resume blogging, even if I'm the only person who reads it. A few days ago, I spent time cleaning up broken widgets (so my blog no longer crashes) and remembering how to create posts (still vague on that, but at least I have a clue). I've been going through old pictures, trying to identify major events that happened during this period (we've had significant health issues, lots of family weddings, the arrival of new nieces and nephews, and the addition of Bernie to our pack, to name just a few).

For now, as I move forward with new posts, and try to figure out what I want this blog to be, I'll share a poem by Steve Garnaas-Holmes (from his website https://unfoldinglight.net/2022/03/ ). I like its simple message: Christ chose healing and kindness; we can do the same.

Mother hen

           Some Pharisees said to him, “Herod wants to kill you.”
           He said to them, “Go and tell that fox,
           ‘Today and tomorrow I am performing cures.’
           Oh, Jerusalem, Jerusalem, how often have I desired
           to gather your children together
           as a hen gathers her brood under her wings…”

                           —from Luke 13.31-34

Holy One, my Beloved, my Savior, my Chief,
you choose to be a hen in the realm of the fox.
You choose kindness in the face of evil.

Give me faith to do the same,
to heal instead of hurting,
to choose kindness even when threatened.

Give me courage to be a mother hen
in a world of foxes,
for always I am under your wings.


Tuesday, April 7, 2015

"Come to Redeem Us, Come to Deliver - Here is Hope!"

I've gone too long without blogging. So much has gone un-noted: announcements and celebrations of weddings and new babies; fall and winter and the advent of spring; Thanksgiving and Christmas and the New Year and Easter; a dog's growing older; our growing older.

Maybe I'll go back and capture some of that, but for now, let me focus on a recent event: this year's performance of Lamb of God.

Jim and I sang in the chorus again this year. Weekly rehearsals started on February 8, culminating in three performances at Chenery Auditorium. There were evening performances on March 20 and 21, as well as a matinee performance on the 21st.

Our friend Meghan made a couple of brief recordings, from the back of the balcony, using her phone. (This is a hint as to the quality; be forewarned.) Here is one of her recordings, of the finale:



I once shared with a friend that I must be broken in some way, because I so seldom "feel the spirit," as others do. She reminded me that we all learn differently, we all receive witnesses differently, and that one person's witness is no better or lesser than another's.

I've tried to remember her counsel, and have learned to trust my own insights and understanding.

But I've rejoiced to feel the witness of the spirit, again and again, during rehearsals and performances of Lamb of God. From the very first rehearsal, in February 2014, to this year's final performance, I felt, again and again, "This is true," "He is speaking to me," "this hope is for ALL of us." I hope that the audience felt as least a portion of that spirit!

Jen has already booked Chenery Auditorium for next year's performances, March 11 and 12. I hope many more people will be able to attend, and enjoy this Easter message, this story of the Hope that we have in Christ.

The ticket price - just $12 - was kept low, so that more people could attend and enjoy the performance. But, as Jen wrote, "Ticket revenues will cover less than half the cost of production. If we want to continue to present this in the same beautiful setting with the same level of excellence, and make it accessible to all those who wish to attend, we will need to raise funds from our community."

If you want to help in this effort, go to our Fundly site: https://fundly.com/lamb-of-god-kalamazoo (as of this moment, there are 23 days left to contribute - go do it!).

Why should you contribute? Here's my very selfish reason: so that I can sing it again, and feel that powerful witness again. (And you can, too!)

Thanks!

Monday, October 13, 2014

Wedding Bells for John and Angela

(why is this still in my draft folder? i have no idea)

On September 6, after spending the morning cleaning up our yard (I eventually finished our clean-up the following Monday afternoon), we cleaned up and headed to Howe, Indiana, for a wedding!

John VanderRoest (Vic's son) and Angela Yoder finally tied the knot, in a nice ceremony at St James Memorial Chapel, in Howe Indiana. It was a beautiful day:


Angela's son James was the first reader (Genesis 1:26-28), and Jim was the second (Corinthians 13:1-3).

James - he could have used a smaller stand!

Jim

Here's a shot of the happy couple, during the toasts at the reception:

Mr and Mrs VanderRoest!
Although we have no  photos to prove it, we enjoyed chatting with Karen and Richard, and with Angela's parents. It was a pleasant get-together, with good weather, food, and all that comes with a wedding. We didn't stay long (we missed the dancing), but wished the couple well and headed home as the sun was setting.


Friday, September 26, 2014

Mother Nature Does Her Thing (Again)

On Friday, September 5, Jim & I were planning to meet friends at the Kalamazoo Art Hop, browse a bit, and go out for pizza. Rain and storms were predicted, but it was holding off when we entered the Park Trade Center. We looked west - toward our home - and the sky was very very dark. We figured the rain had arrived there.

A few minutes later, we started getting texts from our friends. Power was out. Trees were down. And soon, we could look out the window and see pouring rain.

We headed home, and discovered that our neighborhood had been damaged as well. Amazingly, our trees suffered minimal damage, but we found branches from other trees in our yard. We later discovered that our maple had one branch that had split, but not fallen (we're still waiting for the tree service to come take care of that).

We were lucky - Karen and John's tree had taken out our AT&T line back in August. That same tree was damaged in this storm, and two huge limbs landed in our yard, but this time, our AT&T line remained intact. There were lots of power outages, however, including our neighborhood.

Jerry & Rose, our neighbors to the north, had a hole in their attic wall. They had retreated to the basement, and heard a horrible crack. A tree had come down on the power line to their house, and as the line came down, it pulled off a section of their wall.

Apparently the damage was caused not by a tornado, but rather by straight-line winds. Jim and I commiserated with our neighbors, turned on our battery-powered radio, and settled in the front room with books and flashlights. Bonnie tried to figure out this new game plan.

The next day, we worked on dragging branches to the street, and cleaning up in general. The power company was out in force, including not just Consumers Power, but other companies as well. At one point, there were at least six trucks clustered around our intersection! Happily, our power came back around 1 pm on Saturday afternoon. Sometime the next week, city crews came by and cleaned up all the branches piled along the street.

Here are some photos. These first are from Friday night:

Kitty-corner to our house

Rose & Jerry's house - you can just see
the hole in their attic

This was at a house west of us;
the tree snapped below the ground!

Limbs from John & Karen's tree.
They took out our obsolete cable line

I saw this downed pole on Saturday morning, coming home from the Farmers Market:

At the corner of Drake and Sunnydale

Bonnie and I walked through the park, and the Friendship Village Woods, on Sunday morning. Nothing had been cleaned up there yet:

Frey's Park

Bonnie was amazed to find leaf smells at ground level

Frey's Park

This used to be a path in Friendship Village. Oops.

Continuing our walk through the neighborhood, debris lined the streets:

On Croyden, next to the school;
those roots were taller than me

Along Piccadilly

Along Piccadilly

Another shot of Rose & Jerry's house

Piccadilly

This is the area where the phone pole was down - apparently there were two poles down in that area, since this is further in from Drake:

On Sunnydale, looking toward Drake

Some lines still down here

What a mess!

In spite of the storm, some things continued to thrive:

Friendship Village

Friendship Village

Along Piccadilly

And of course, Bonnie thrives anytime there's a walk involved!

Trying out the new
sidewalk along Drake

Monday, September 15, 2014

Did I Miss Anything?

In early September, I came across a poem and a TED talk that both illustrate the importance of thinking and learning and participating.

The poem is delightful - two responses to the question that must drive teachers crazy: Did I miss anything?
Did I Miss Anything?
by Tom Wayman

Nothing. When we realized you weren’t here
we sat with our hands folded on our desks
in silence, for the full two hours

     Everything. I gave an exam worth
     40 percent of the grade for this term
     and assigned some reading due today
     on which I’m about to hand out a quiz
     worth 50 percent

Nothing. None of the content of this course
has value or meaning
Take as many days off as you like:
any activities we undertake as a class
I assure you will not matter either to you or me
and are without purpose

     Everything. A few minutes after we began last time
     a shaft of light suddenly descended and an angel
     or other heavenly being appeared
     and revealed to us what each woman or man must do
     to attain divine wisdom in this life and
     the hereafter
     This is the last time the class will meet
     before we disperse to bring the good news to all people
          on earth.

Nothing. When you are not present
how could something significant occur?

     Everything. Contained in this classroom
     is a microcosm of human experience
     assembled for you to query and examine and ponder
     This is not the only place such an opportunity has been
          gathered

     but it was one place

     And you weren’t here
Jim and I watched a TED talk by Ken Jennings, of Jeopardy fame. He talked about his experience playing Jeopardy against a supercomputer, and how he felt that his skill - being a know-it-all - was being phased out. But then he talked about the advantages of just knowing things, and shared a remarkable story.
I always think of the story of a little girl named Tilly Smith. She was a 10-year-old girl from Surrey, England on vacation with her parents a few years ago in Phuket, Thailand. She runs up to them on the beach one morning and says, "Mom, Dad, we've got to get off the beach." And they say, "What do you mean? We just got here." And she said, "In Mr. Kearney's geography class last month, he told us that when the tide goes out abruptly out to sea and you see the waves churning way out there, that's the sign of a tsunami, and you need to clear the beach." What would you do if your 10-year-old daughter came up to you with this? Her parents thought about it, and they finally, to their credit, decided to believe her. They told the lifeguard, they went back to the hotel, and the lifeguard cleared over 100 people off the beach, luckily, because that was the day of the Boxing Day tsunami, the day after Christmas, 2004, that killed thousands of people in Southeast Asia and around the Indian Ocean. But not on that beach, not on Mai Khao Beach, because this little girl had remembered one fact from her geography teacher a month before.
Isn't that a great story? Who knows when some bit of knowledge is going to be handy. He talks about choosing to keep on learning, and offers this:
We make that choice by being curious, inquisitive people who like to learn, who don't just say, "Well, as soon as the bell has rung and the class is over, I don't have to learn anymore," or "Thank goodness I have my diploma. I'm done learning for a lifetime. I don't have to learn new things anymore." No, every day we should be striving to learn something new. We should have this unquenchable curiosity for the world around us. That's where the people you see on "Jeopardy" come from. These know-it-alls, they're not Rainman-style savants sitting at home memorizing the phone book. I've met a lot of them. For the most part, they are just normal folks who are universally interested in the world around them, curious about everything, thirsty for this knowledge about whatever subject.
It's a interesting and entertaining talk - go watch it!

Of course, if Bonnie asks did I miss anything? she is talking about either food, or Good Smells: